Why a blog?

Many people have asked me why do I want the world to know about my personal life, about my family.  Well I have my reasons, and these are the reasons.

1. I have been given this journey for a specific reason.  I have been given each one of my girls for a specific reason.  I want others to experience this journey with me.  It has taken me over a year to be able to wrap my mind around everything that I have been given.  I have answered many family, friends, and strangers questions.  But I have held a lot back (or honestly just ignored them) because I didn't really know how to answer. It's one of those things that if I say it out loud then it is true, but if I keep it to myself and in my head then I can still pretend everything is fine and normal.  The truth is everything is not fine and normal.  I am now excepting that this is the life that I was meant to have.  I may not have chosen this life if I had the choice, but now that I am living it, I wouldn't trade it for anything.  And as you read my posts in the future, I hope you can see why.

2.  When you have been given news or a diagnosis for yourself or for a loved one (good or bad) that you don't understand, you immediately start looking for any information that you can find on it.  So that you can be educated and make good decisions.  You start looking for people to relate to.  Your whole world has been rocked.  You feel totally alone, even though you know in reality you are not.  At least this is what I did.  And that is when I started to come across other peoples stories.  I no longer felt "alone".  Others are going through these exact same situations or already have gone through them and since they shared their story I have somewhat of an idea of what to expect or how to handle different situations and that the emotions that I have are valid and that I am not a freak for thinking/feeling this way.  So now it is my turn to "pay it forward".  I hope to be an inspiration and light to someone in their darkest moments.


  1. Thank you! I am very glad you are sharing your story! :)

  2. I just came across this. I'm on the Cdls journey also. I have a son named zakary with cdls. It is nice to finally not feel alone. Zakary is 11 now. Praise God. Everyday is a blessing but it can be very lonely when no one understands what your going through. Thanks